It was 2014, I’d just changed careers, graduated Fashion School and was working in retail for $10 an hour. I felt as though I was on some secret mission because I told no one what I was doing; I was too ashamed. I was disappointed, in God, and completely frustrated with the way my life planned out. I thought God had greater things in store for me and never did I think making $50 a week was part of them.
“You’re going to be blessed in last place”, the minister spoke over me, before laying his hands on my forehead and praying for me. Ironically enough, I was the last person in line. I rarely took what someone “prophesied”, to me, as truth; Although I’d had some trust issues, for some reason this word really ministered to me. “You’re going to be blessed in last place”, I kept repeating to myself as the tears rolled down my face. “How much longer do I have to wait to be blessed?” I thought. This prophesy was one of those catch-22 phrases in that, I was going to be blessed but there would sure be a wait. I watched as my colleagues were being blessed with new opportunities, great jobs, promotions, marriages, homes; traveling opportunities, and the list goes on. The prophesy of everyone else getting blessed was coming to pass but I was still stuck and miserable.“Why did you pull me all the way out of my comfort zone to leave me?”, I thought. There were many days that I questioned God’s will for me. I felt like the Israelites as they groaned to Moses after he led them out of slavery into the wilderness.
“That night all the members of the community raised their voices and wept aloud. All the Israelites grumbled against Moses and Aaron, and the whole assembly said to them, “If only we had died in Egypt! Or in this wilderness! Why is the LORD bringing us to this land only to let us fall by the sword? Our wives and children will be taken as plunder. Wouldn’t it be better for us to go back to Egypt?”4 And they said to each other, “We should choose a leader and go back to Egypt.” Exodus 14 1- 4.
I was the Israelites; I was tempted to go back to slavery (old life), if it meant getting out of the wilderness. By the grace of God, I kept hold of the promise: “You’re going to be blessed in last place.” I wavered in my faith and questioned God many days. I wondered when He was going to bless me because I couldn’t see any light from my side of darkness.
“Last place” was about 5 years later; I am now living in my blessed season and experiencing the outpour of favor from God. God has been opening amazing doors for me to be able to do the things I truly enjoy. Through this journey, I’ve remained steadfast, unmovable, consistent, and obedient to God. He used a vessel to give me a word and a promise that He has been sure to keep.
I say all of this to say: trust the plans that God has for your life. You too may be in a wilderness season. You may be in a position where you feel everything has dried up; I’ve been there. You may not know how you are going to make ends meet, I’ve been there. You may feel like God overlooked you, guess what? I’ve been there too. I’ve been there because God wanted me to be HERE to tell you this word today.
Here are some quick scriptures to carry with you through this season:
- Lean not on your own understanding. Proverbs 3:5-6
- Trust that God is a rewarder to those who diligently seek Him. Hebrews 11:6
- He will give you wisdom to get wealth. Deuteronomy 8:18
- He has great thing in store for you. Jeremiah 29:11 If He promised you something, He is going to do it because He cannot lie. Numbers 23:19
You are an heir to God’s majestic throne and the world cannot offer you anything that God cannot freely give you. If He gave you a desire in you heart for something, trust Him, give Him time; He’s going to bless you.