I can finally say: there has been a total revival in the connections I’ve built and established with female creatives recently. I don’t put the complete blame on the past females I’ve encountered; I too had a huge part to play in the “blow-ups”. There were things I needed to learn about myself in the process.
I’ve recognized that NOT addressing things that bother me comes easy to me. Since being saved, I have found myself being really PASSIVE in relationships/friendships. I never wanted to be viewed as less than a true representative of Jesus Christ! But Jesus wasn’t PASSIVE; He flipped tables and addressed people’s mess! I also believe this passivity came from being in an emotionally abusive relationship. You get tired of arguing and tired of always being “wrong”, you lose your will to fight; this is what happened to me.
I’ve learned the hard way that avoiding issues does not make them go away! You may forfeit having to address them presently but they will manifest again; trust me. But, I’m leaving the past in the past and embracing the future of creative female collaborations. I’m learning to trust again! I have the character to sustain these new connections!
We never have to be prisoners of past! Don’t let one bad break-up tarnish your view on people as a whole! Don’t let your future pay for what your past has done to you! It’s okay to trust again; I’m a living witness.